Blogging from my phone, heh. I can't do any underlines or bold or anything. And for some reason I find that a little unnerving. I like my posts to follow a certain formula, I guess.
I've been having a good week. I've had job offers, been driving, talked on the phone to friends. Things that would usually pretty much fill me with joy. So why do I feel so sad right now?
I wish I had more control over my moods. Or that my psych would just put me on some fuckine meds already. I've been trying. But I think everyone's sick of hearing "I'm trying." from me. I can't really tell if I've made any tangible progress, in anything. Have I?
...Will I ever?
Ah well. Weird weekend ahead. Driving lesson on Saturday, worth 3 hours. And trying to avoid people for the rest of the time, pretty much. I don't know if I can deal this time. I should be okay. I should be great.
But I'm not.
Life is great, everything's going well.
But there's still a lot of things missing.
I might have some tea now.
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