February 14th.

Cornerstone.

Listening to: Blissful silence.

Mood: Everything.

Chatting to: Bas.

I drove today.

It was pretty fucking amazing. And easier than I thought. I'm going to get my P's as soon as I can. Well, if my parents take me driving enough for me to get my hours up in a reasonable amount of time.

I know you don't really believe in Valentine's Day.

My dad's booking me a lesson for this Saturday morning, if they can fit me in. Well, I wasn't busy anyway, so I may as well. It certainly won't hurt.

Neither do I, really. Well, not since you told me you didn't. You have a remarkable amount of influence over my opinions.

I'm so busy this coming week, though... I might just get lost in it all.

I do miss getting lost in things.

But I just wanted to say that I love you. Even though you won't see this.

I want to go shopping soon. I have a list of places I want to go. Mostly vintage and secondhand stores. But I need money first. Damn it. I just fucking wish my mother would give me what's rightfully mine.

I might apply at Hoyts tomorrow. In between all the other stuff I have to do.

I've been trying to keep busy.

I doubt you'll ever read this, actually.

But it will always be you, and only you.

And that will never change.

I'm sorry.

I just hope, if you can't ever love me, you'll at least understand.

But I'd really like you to love me.

Keeping busy is good, I guess.

I've been trying. Doing all the things you wanted me to.

I just wish you'd notice me.

I love you.

Happy Valentine's Day.