April 23rd.

Pet.

Listening to: Glass Slipper - The Dresden Dolls.
Mood: Exhausted.

It gets tricky. Don't be picky. If the slipper fits, you wear it, whore.

I feel silly a lot of the time. And meek. Like if I say anything people won't take me seriously.
I'd like to be strong.
I'm going to be strong.

I've decided on my first tattoo. I'm getting an ampersand.
(This symbol: &)
Want the backstory? Don't care, you're getting it anyway.
Okay, so. There's a song by Amanda Palmer called Ampersand. It is a very nice song, first off.
There's a line in it that goes "I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersand". I interpret that as a statement that the singer doesn't feel like she needs a partner to feel strong or worth something. Am I making sense? It makes sense in my head. And some of the other lyrics are along the same lines.
Ever since I started dating (5 long years ago, ha.) I've kinda felt the opposite. Like if i'm not with someone I'm not worth anything. and I'm sick of feeling that way.
I am my own person and I don't need another's love to feel validated.
(I mean, love is nice and all. I'm not anti-love, in fact, I'm for it. I just don't want to NEED it like I used to.)
So, in short. 1, it is an Amanda tribute. And 2, it is a reminder that I am strong and worth something even when I'm alone.

I sound really fucking pretentious there. Oh well. It's my body, bitches, i'll do what I want with it.
Now, how big and what font and where to get it?

Yesterday and today have made me really happy. A touch melancholy, perhaps, but happy. I hope this feeling stays.
Busy month ahead. Keeping busy is good. Distractions are good. I like distractions.
I also like tea. I might make some tea.

Okay, I have tea now. Good strong tea with no milk and just a pinch of sugar. Heaven.

Birthday soon. Gulp.
I'll be an adult.
But what'll change, really? Anything?

For now, I wait.
For a lot of things.

Back to watching Buffy now.

Ciao.